There is a cute boy in my SAT class. :) He's also very smart too. HAHA!

I'm going to go to Berkeley (FIRST TIME EVER.. I know how disgraceful, I'm sorry), and then Stanford tomorrow with my family. My dad went to UC Berkeley for graduate school and married my mom there. So my mom was getting all teary talking about memories there... waiting for my dad at the UCB library, working at a quaint restauraunt nearby, the bakery that she and my dad ordered their wedding cake, etc. So we're going to visit all those places tomorrow. Fun.

WHY DO WE HAVE SO MUCH CALCULUS HOMEWORK!? why why why...

Knowing me, you'd probably know that I'm VERY insecure about my physical appearance, which leads me to the decision that I don't want to go to the Senior Waterworld trip. Everyone always rolls their eyes when I complain about my fat, but SERIOUSLY.. YOU haven't seen me naked, and you haven't seen my belly or whatever because I conceal it well. So please, I KNOW I got them rolls.

Plus the ticket is $50. I can buy a lot of nice cheap clothes with $50.

It's only been three days and I seriously think senioritis is already kicking in. I don't feel like doing homework. But then again, I work on other things like SAT studying, college essays, and teacher rec packets. It's still summer (I know, what a pathetic summer), but I still think it hasn't hit me that school has started.

Tennis has been alright. The new coach is making things really new for us and I guess we're having a hard time getting used to it. At least he's serious about it. I'm worried about this upcoming Tuesday though because it's when the people who weren't able to try out during summer can try out. The coach is having a "tournament" type of thing. So people at the bottom of the JV singles and doubles ladder are getting challenged. People are going to get cut. I'm so scared for some people! But I won't be there. I'll be with Stephanie doing lovely lab help for physics.

Upcoming birthdays!!:
Sept 10- Jeff and Charles
Sept 24- RAYMOND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sept 30- Valerieeee

I'm bored.


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I found this entry from about a year ago:

what exactly happened over the past 9 months... everything just moved so quickly. you cant just fall in love and out of love in nine months. so did i really fall in love or... am i still in love. life is really complicated.

Haha funny how each year goes by... and I still feel exactly the same way.

Part 2 of the entry:

...better yet, God, make sure i find the right guy at the right time. make sure that he'll help me grow spiritually, as well as a person. please dont let him hurt me. when i tell him "dont break my heart" please let him actually follow those words and take them seriously.

Dang, I was hella wise. 8)

I have a secret blog where I rant about my so-called "love life." It's fairly interesting to read. Nobody knows it, but me though. Juicy juicy. x)