For my OB class, we had to take the Jung Personality Test and I came out to be an ESFJ (Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, Judging). I guess most people categorize me as an extrovert because I can act a little cuckoo sometimes, but I've come to realize more and more that I'm a pretty reserved and shy person. Last weekend I asked my mom if I was shy when I was younger, and apparently I was, and that my babysitter suggested that I not be taken out of nursery school otherwise I would "lose touch with my current relationships with the other children due to my shyness."

How am I now? I love fading into the background. Sometimes I love not having class with people (like this semester)! I go in, don't have to save a seat, and leave with iPod in ears and with no need to wait for someone or having to talk to someone. Okay, it sounds a little cold, and I have enjoyed having friends in my classes, but wow, being an introvert is so freeing. Sometimes I just love being left alone and in my own world.

There's a huge "but" though. There's a problem... lack of relationships. I guess that's my fear--creating new relationships or making current relationships more meaningful. Relationships take work, and often I'm unwilling to foster them. My comfort zone is such a nice place to retreat to, but how can you love and minister when you're not putting yourself out there? You can't.

I have such a desire to finish strong for my LAST undergraduate semester. I want to boost up my GPA and not be overwhelmed for my last few weeks in Berkeley. However, it's quite overwhelming thinking about it. It's like trying to do everything at once. Finishing papers, completing final exam study guides, ah! It's like cramming, but way ahead the deadline. WHOA.

And I'm kind of a freak. You know that "25 Random Things" list fad that totally ended months ago? Well, I've been accumulating my list in my planner because I want it to be totally epiphany-like randomness. I'm only on number 10 and haven't added to it for weeks. How sad.